All my dummy books

Not long after my first shoot I started my photo books.                                                                 I wanted to start getting and idea of what my book was going to start to look like. I wanted to be able to see where the holes were in the work. Which meant that I could plan my shoots a lot more effectively knowing what I needed to put in where.

18379520_10210916792010667_1337343412_oIn the end I had about 10 Or so dummy books (Not all in the image above). They had all types of edits in, I had big 50 page edits down to condensed 20 pages.                                     I was trying to find the middle ground for what was going to work. This helped in terms of what photos I could eliminate. I wasn’t sure what photos would work, as an individual image they worked put together in a sequence some would not fit into a sequence.

Because of this it turned into a lot of trial and error. While a group of photos would work in another sequence I would try after another shoot the sequence would fall apart again. So the middle ground of shooting got quiet complicated as I wasn’t sure what to shoot for fear of messing up a sequence.

It was only really in the last two sequnces that it really came together. It felt like it took forever to get to. And I remember being repetdly told that out of nowhere my work would just click into place.  And what felt like to last minute for my liking it did end up just falling into place. Which left me with very little and next to no time to then test paper types. But I luckily knew what paper I had in mind. And it did mean that in the end I have finished with a sequence I am happy with!!

Exhibition sketches

I have had quiet a few ideas on how to exhibit my work, but I have changed the size of my work. I am now doing two A2’s instead of just one and an A3, now that I have ordered my prints I don’t know where to take my work. I have so many ideas and options on how to put my work up, but I think it will be a when it’s time to put the work up that will be when I make a final decision on how I wish to put the work up.

Baphotohudd Instagram.

We have been given the chance to do a mini Instagram exhibition to promote the exhibition. One of the technicians has said for anyone who wants to, we can send him some of our images and statement about my work. I think it is a really good idea to get our work out there. And let people know the sort of work they will be seeing. And Instagram is a great way of doing it.

It also looks good for the photography course and page that shows the work us third years are making. It also looks good for the other years to see what they are going to do when it get’s to their third year. Another group it looks good for is potential students, that they have a page to look up and see what they can do if they came here.

New job

Recently I have got myself a new job with an upcoming company called Perform Group. I now work as a freelance transmission controller, that pretty much means I transmit live sports to the website the company works with called DAZN.

 

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It means that I now have a graduate job with career prospects before I have even graduated, which I know I am very lucky to have. Because the company is relatively new means it is at the stage where it is growing fast. There are a  lot of possibilities and new changes coming for my job, regardless of of freelancer of full timer. At the moment the company goes out to both Germany and Japan, and is branching out to more countries in the near and far future.

I have had to learn the transmission side of things and how to use all the new programmes that come with the job. But being almost fresh out of uni going into a new  company has it’s advantages. It has meant that I am eager to learn and adapt to new ways of working. I also haven’t done anything like this before so they can train me to how they want. I do feel I have potential to go further in this job and in the future I would like too. And the job also gives me experience to be able to work in transmissions anywhere now. Which gives me flexibility when I think about the future.

Left over photos.

I have had such a hard time trying to narrow down my photos for the photo book. I haven’t wanted to waste any of my work. If I could have done my book would have had 300 photos not 30… I have ended up with so many beautiful photos of Jess and some pretty comic ones. But no one wants to look at a book that long of the same face unless they know the person the books about.

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I am planning to do something with my left over photos I want Jess to be able to have something to look back on. As I never realised how big this project really was until I looked at all the images I still have left over and barely glanced at twice. But I see this really has been such a big project that has taken so much to develop into the final stage that I am now at.

Putting my work on Instagram.

This was the first image of mine I chose to put on Instagram, I wanted to see how my work would be received. And I loved this image from the moment I took it. So I thought I have classmates who put their work on social media why can’t I! This piece to me wasn’t what you see on Instagram all the time so for that reason I thought I’d risk it. And I got a lot of likes not hundreds but enough to put confidence in to my work, I even got a good handful of additional followers which was nice. Felt my Instagram was getting a little more out there!

I think adding work my work to my Instagram did encourage me a bit more to go for it with my work. And that people want to see what I am doing or else why follow my page. It did give me confidence I desperately needed, I am the first one to admit I am often defeatist about my work and am the first one to pick faults. So doing this both got my work noticed and inspired me to be confident in the work I had created.

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Right and wrong….

Recently I have read so many things about the pressures women face today, As well as reading about them I am hearing about them first hand. I realise my blog covers mainly my project at uni but I also thin I can include thing’s that need talking about. After all it is my blog…

There are so many issues we don’t think about that effect so many young women now, we categorise a lot of them as almost taboo subjects. A lot can stem from very low key mental illness problems going up to any variety or severity, and because of the boundaries there are now we feel we have to suffer in silence. But recently the media in all formats down to even Netflix has looked at the repercussions of staying silent. A recent report on BBC health spoke about how children as young as 3 years old are displaying signs of depression and eating disorders, 3 year old’s!!

There are so many different ways women are suffering these days, living in a society where we are expected to be vulnerable and judged and reprimanded for being what they expect. Recently one issue that came up to me is some one close to me broke, the strain of feeling wrong because of how they feel about a situation that is not theirs, but is attached to them. They stay for the person but the situation scares them and makes them feel like they are wrong in themselves and something isn’t right about them.

It takes us back to stereotypes that we still can not break free of. Why should we have a natural mother instinct and be made to feel ashamed for things like post-natal or simply not mine but I will make myself apart of.. Why should we look like the Barbie dolls we used to play with rather than embrace the person we really are…Why should a women not be allowed to choose who she loves gender aside, happiness first… Resort to taking the silence out on themselves and breaking their body in the process. There are thousands of things that infuriate me for who we should be.. why can’t we be who we are!

The final month.

I now have 1 month and a day till the final submission. It is odd to think this is the final push for university, and the fun part that my to do list no matter how much I do it doesn’t seem to want to go down. I still have a lot to consider for my final work and to get it ready for the exhibition. There are some parts of my work that I will be leaving for another couple of weeks to complete.

The CRS (critical reflective summary) which I have two of will be getting done pretty much last minute. As I feel how can I reflect on all my work If I am still adding work in. Although I will be adding the finishing touches to my work after I have completed the CRS I want to essentially done bar a bit of house work around the edges.

This week I am looking to get my book sequence finalised and send off for my photo book. This will be a few late nights in the library for me, trying to balance work with extra shifts and my uni work has been proving both entertaining and tiring.  I just have to keep reminding myself that it is almost the end, and this time next year I will be missing uni terribly.

But overall it is all slowly coming together and I feel good about my work this year which does make a change. And have actually enjoyed using this blog as a way of doing my work! It has been different from what we are use to which has made a change. And makes me wanna keep blogging about things after uni…

 

Thinking about what’s next…

One thing third year comes with besides the worry of the dreaded dissertation and final project/ exams is what’s next?! All you get asked is what are you doing when you graduate?

Honest answer- celebrating!! Usual answer- not a clue!! What they want us to say- I have it all mapped out and here’s the diagram to prove it!!

As nice as it would be to have no student over draft, a job and perfect house to move into.. truth is it doesn’t happen for many. My mum has been asking for months so what you doing and my answer if moving back in hasn’t been her ideal answer. It was only recently that I managed to get out of one dead end job and land a good one!! Is it anything to do with my degree well.. no it really isn’t. But is it pretty much a graduate job I say yes.

BUT all that aside what is really the perfect answer to the big question of what next… Personally I don’t want to think about what is next. My main concern has been and will be till my deadline is how am I gonna fit all this work in before it is due to a passable quality!! That really should be the answer, when I have a clue we will answer the question.

The idea of what do we do next is terrifying, I mean we joke about it amongst ourselves but really anyone who says they have it 110% together is totally lying to themselves and everyone around them haha. Like no one can tell you anything that will chill you out, recently my partner tried the cliche one chapter ends another begins and we talk about all the stuff we want to happen in the future. Which does occasionally calm you down when you think about all the stuff you can go on and do.

We eventually work out even a draft plan and idea of it can get you through, but it is really like how you’ve got through the past 3 years just wing it and hope for the best!!

Last tutorial.

This week also saw my last one to one tutorial, after so much trial and error with my work I had a final sequence I was happy with. The start of the week saw my last shoot done and dusted, then a very long evening through to morning in the library.

I had got to a sequence I was happy with and added in that latest shoot, I also had tried to print the work relatively similar to the sizes I want to print in the final print.  We talked about adding in extra photos to pages that looked dull with only one image on or adding multiple images like a collage. At this point I was little skeptical to the idea of change this late in the day, but I do have time to add more photos in and see how I find them.

Another point that was brought to my attention was image size and quality. My origional thinking was that all the images had to be same size and placed in such order. Whereas the new idea now is three large prints ranging from A1-A3 stuck in some order but not uniformed. And lastly a small A5 print from first year that is almost hidden. In said image it was Jess’ first time in the studio and that is apparent by her terrified expression, which I think would fit both nicely and humorously.

But overall it was a nice official last tutorial, I left feeling happy about the work I had shown with only small things to consider which did make a even nicer change!! I will not miss the what feels like project re-write every single tutorial. :’)