This has been one of the most tedious thing’s this year and I will be glad when it’s over!! I haven’t been to happy about feeling like I have to constantly hint, nagg and bug family and friends to show how much they love me and give me money haha. I have managed to get a few donations together from family. And have bribed them with as well as the free print we do for certain donations. I have offered to do prints from my work as part of it. Knowing my family have been wanting some of my work.
I do understand the fund raising was essential I have just hated how last minute it has all felt.
I now have 1 month and a day till the final submission. It is odd to think this is the final push for university, and the fun part that my to do list no matter how much I do it doesn’t seem to want to go down. I still have a lot to consider for my final work and to get it ready for the exhibition. There are some parts of my work that I will be leaving for another couple of weeks to complete.
The CRS (critical reflective summary) which I have two of will be getting done pretty much last minute. As I feel how can I reflect on all my work If I am still adding work in. Although I will be adding the finishing touches to my work after I have completed the CRS I want to essentially done bar a bit of house work around the edges.
This week I am looking to get my book sequence finalised and send off for my photo book. This will be a few late nights in the library for me, trying to balance work with extra shifts and my uni work has been proving both entertaining and tiring. I just have to keep reminding myself that it is almost the end, and this time next year I will be missing uni terribly.
But overall it is all slowly coming together and I feel good about my work this year which does make a change. And have actually enjoyed using this blog as a way of doing my work! It has been different from what we are use to which has made a change. And makes me wanna keep blogging about things after uni…
One thing third year comes with besides the worry of the dreaded dissertation and final project/ exams is what’s next?! All you get asked is what are you doing when you graduate?
Honest answer- celebrating!! Usual answer- not a clue!! What they want us to say- I have it all mapped out and here’s the diagram to prove it!!
As nice as it would be to have no student over draft, a job and perfect house to move into.. truth is it doesn’t happen for many. My mum has been asking for months so what you doing and my answer if moving back in hasn’t been her ideal answer. It was only recently that I managed to get out of one dead end job and land a good one!! Is it anything to do with my degree well.. no it really isn’t. But is it pretty much a graduate job I say yes.
BUT all that aside what is really the perfect answer to the big question of what next… Personally I don’t want to think about what is next. My main concern has been and will be till my deadline is how am I gonna fit all this work in before it is due to a passable quality!! That really should be the answer, when I have a clue we will answer the question.
The idea of what do we do next is terrifying, I mean we joke about it amongst ourselves but really anyone who says they have it 110% together is totally lying to themselves and everyone around them haha. Like no one can tell you anything that will chill you out, recently my partner tried the cliche one chapter ends another begins and we talk about all the stuff we want to happen in the future. Which does occasionally calm you down when you think about all the stuff you can go on and do.
We eventually work out even a draft plan and idea of it can get you through, but it is really like how you’ve got through the past 3 years just wing it and hope for the best!!
Last week saw our last lesson of uni, we got all the key dates and information we need to get us to the big deadline. It was an odd sort of lesson, every one is so tired from trying to get work done, but also excited we are almost there and finally was a slight hint of sadness.
I think as much as we will be so glad for no more deadlines, the idea the last three to four years is coming to an end and we have to think about what is next has settled in. We have been given all dates we need. And more work added to the ever so long to do list, although we knew it was coming. Two more critical reflective summaries to complete. But on the plus side we also have so many dates to look forward too, we have all the time to celebrate after. With final exhibition to show off all our hard work then graduation the month after, we have a good way of finishing and ending on a high note.
We finished the tutorial with getting a last photo of us all together…
After my recent tutorial my project has been thrown out. And now am left confused as to what my project is really about now. My tutor after seeing my work for many months and knowing what it is about decided he did not like what the work was about anymore.
The idea of who she was, who she wants to be and who she really is now isn’t the basis for the work. But rather now I am to play with the ideas of too many photos of Jess like capturing her in every way. Or break it down into images she both likes and hates and then ones I like and hate. Which to me is going to get repetitive as we have very similar taste in the images.
So going to my second tutorial with my other tutor I spoke about the problems I was having. And had narrowed down my Images with approximately 5 images from shoots I have done so far. This brought my images down to 64.. Not the ideal amount. And then to be told to get rid of half of them again.
To me I feel like I am wasting my images, which I know isn’t the case as even I would not want to look at a 400 page edit. That would be mad, I just realise I have to be critical and get rid of images that won’t help me in anyway. Just because I like the image does not mean it will fit into the sequence.
Now coming up to my last shoot for this project and Uni I feel totally mixed. On one hand I feel I could easily shoot for another couple of years and continue with the Uni life not ready for it to be over and responsibilities to start. But on the other hand it has been great being able to pull all my work together and show how much she has changed. And finally get uni over with as much fun as it has been. I feel ready to see it go now.
And in a way I have. I feel like You see this timid little girl at the start of my work when I was a scared fresher myself just learning to live on my own without my mum! And as the work progresses can see how Jess grows and how my work has also changed with it.
Jess and Rex.
No longer are we the people from first year. Which is leaving me nostalgic and sad to see both this project and both the people we have been go with it. It has been a tough project and shooting with Jess over the last few years. From one problem to another we have slowly always managed to get the work done. Though this year I like how much more confident she has become and that has allowed us to push the boat out on what we can do. Also that we have collaborated a lot more so this project is as much hers and mine.
But now a handful of weeks from the end, it really is hitting home that my degree is pretty much at an end. Making me dread this final upcoming shoot with Jess. Although one last studio session with her now she is so confident and daring with so many of her own ideas seems like a great way to end it. Will be sad to never get her into a studio again where she thrives so naturally now.
After this point, then the last hard part is up to me. To narrow down all the photos I have been collecting. And show Jessica’s almost full circle during my time at Uni now as this young beautiful women she has turned into.
In this next shoot we experimented with high key fashion ideas. Taken from a mood board created by my sister in preparation for this shoot. We wanted to look at something more vibrant and different from what we have done so far. This stays with the idealistic theme and adds more variety to the work.
These also not yet edited show the raw image that will soon be altered to match with the ideal version of who Jess wants to be. Which for my research will show the progression of who she wants to be in comparison to who she is in my other work.
All these images will slowly get selected down to create my final photo book and 3 main prints for my exhibition. I want the idealistic images to all be unique and vibrant. Just so you know what is beyond the ordinary and without the same realistic quality as the location style shots. I want to make her stand out in a unique way without any certain narrative to this section, just her in almost an individual identity with each studio shot in a new way that has her in one idealistic way in one way or another.