After my recent tutorial my project has been thrown out. And now am left confused as to what my project is really about now. My tutor after seeing my work for many months and knowing what it is about decided he did not like what the work was about anymore.
The idea of who she was, who she wants to be and who she really is now isn’t the basis for the work. But rather now I am to play with the ideas of too many photos of Jess like capturing her in every way. Or break it down into images she both likes and hates and then ones I like and hate. Which to me is going to get repetitive as we have very similar taste in the images.
So going to my second tutorial with my other tutor I spoke about the problems I was having. And had narrowed down my Images with approximately 5 images from shoots I have done so far. This brought my images down to 64.. Not the ideal amount. And then to be told to get rid of half of them again.
To me I feel like I am wasting my images, which I know isn’t the case as even I would not want to look at a 400 page edit. That would be mad, I just realise I have to be critical and get rid of images that won’t help me in anyway. Just because I like the image does not mean it will fit into the sequence.
My latest shoot did not go quiet as planned. If I try not to criticize my work too much I believe I set my expectations very high after my previous shoot. I have ended up with a lot more to think about than I thought I originally would.
From being to critical I had dismissed the whole shoot, that is until my tutorial and then looked through the images a lot more without adding to much attachment to them. And I found there was actually work I can use after all. Though in my next post I will talk about the recommended project re-write I have been told to take much to my disapproval!
It has been interesting to think about why Jess doesn’t like the work for her reasons and why I wasn’t feeling it for mine. But I think it goes back to it was not looking how we expect to see it on social media. The work we have been producing looks like things you see from fashion style companies or celebrity photo shoots. And because of this I believe that is the reason we didn’t connect with this work as well as with previous shoots.
Ideally this was planned as my last shoot. As it has worked out it will not be, having looked through the work and now knowing there is gonna be shift in the key themes. I have decided to do one final shoot in the coming weeks. Only once I have worked out the parameters for this new change that is going on in this project.
Now coming up to my last shoot for this project and Uni I feel totally mixed. On one hand I feel I could easily shoot for another couple of years and continue with the Uni life not ready for it to be over and responsibilities to start. But on the other hand it has been great being able to pull all my work together and show how much she has changed. And finally get uni over with as much fun as it has been. I feel ready to see it go now.
And in a way I have. I feel like You see this timid little girl at the start of my work when I was a scared fresher myself just learning to live on my own without my mum! And as the work progresses can see how Jess grows and how my work has also changed with it.
Jess and Rex.
No longer are we the people from first year. Which is leaving me nostalgic and sad to see both this project and both the people we have been go with it. It has been a tough project and shooting with Jess over the last few years. From one problem to another we have slowly always managed to get the work done. Though this year I like how much more confident she has become and that has allowed us to push the boat out on what we can do. Also that we have collaborated a lot more so this project is as much hers and mine.
But now a handful of weeks from the end, it really is hitting home that my degree is pretty much at an end. Making me dread this final upcoming shoot with Jess. Although one last studio session with her now she is so confident and daring with so many of her own ideas seems like a great way to end it. Will be sad to never get her into a studio again where she thrives so naturally now.
After this point, then the last hard part is up to me. To narrow down all the photos I have been collecting. And show Jessica’s almost full circle during my time at Uni now as this young beautiful women she has turned into.
I really like this photographers work, the colours and post production on it are great. Just how she has taken a standard portrait and added colour and effects to turn it into something surreal and abstract. They haven’t been edited within an inch of their lives just simply but differently.
I have looked at this photographer because of my work looking at ideal body image. Although she takes an average looking body and almost breaks it down. She adds a flaw like the crack in the girls back or hair looking like it has been on fire. She is the contrast to my work. As I want to accentuate the perfection in my images instead of perfecting it and inserting flaws. I feel like she has thought about ever detail even down to the colour. The use of quite calming pastel colors almost make the flaw stand out more and look angry in comparison. Making the flaw the literal crack in the photograph.
Taken from my set up for the studio. It took quiet a while to get the coloured tones I wanted to come through at the right levels. We had a fair few technical problems. One light would flash as another would not. Which would cancel out the other colour. In the end with this we had to go down to one light with two coloured gels on it.
Overall we managed to make the shoot work with no melded gels! And it had some great photos as an outcome!
In this next shoot we experimented with high key fashion ideas. Taken from a mood board created by my sister in preparation for this shoot. We wanted to look at something more vibrant and different from what we have done so far. This stays with the idealistic theme and adds more variety to the work.
These also not yet edited show the raw image that will soon be altered to match with the ideal version of who Jess wants to be. Which for my research will show the progression of who she wants to be in comparison to who she is in my other work.
All these images will slowly get selected down to create my final photo book and 3 main prints for my exhibition. I want the idealistic images to all be unique and vibrant. Just so you know what is beyond the ordinary and without the same realistic quality as the location style shots. I want to make her stand out in a unique way without any certain narrative to this section, just her in almost an individual identity with each studio shot in a new way that has her in one idealistic way in one way or another.
After my last shoot I wasn’t sure where to go with this one. So that is when me and my sister decided to collaborate on this one. I have needed more work belonging to the section about her ideal self and this shoot was dedicated to that idea about idealism.
This shoot was designed by Jess she picked colour and posed how she wanted to. We wanted to work on something that was about body image but very different to what we see in the everyday and past sections of this project. The contrast that comes through in my work now has shown me the development that I have been waiting for.
These images that are not yet post produced have began to give me an insight into the flow of the work. It is helping me to plan where my next shoot is going and how I want to present my work for my Final exhibition.
In the two images I have included the first looks at a more voyeuristic approach to the work. The female body in an over sexualised way which in modern social media is not uncommon now.
And the second image is one that has been seen before but we recreated finally after many mistimed attempts!! This image is almost symbolic for how she can be feeling in the last few years I have photographed her. It aligns with the idea of confusion and speed everything seems to move at that period of a persons life, Which is why I used the image.